I'm so tired... can't this just be over.

So err... I'm dead

So I had this strange dream last night/this morning... I'm trying to remember it but I've forgotten most of it already lol..

We were at this kind of tower platform/seriously big observation deck/platform type thing and there were all these random like railings and holes and stuff you know it wasn't like a straight rectangle platform. Several people died/had died and there was some sort of pattern but I've forgotten what it was.... anyway. It was really casual when this guy next to me pulled out a gun and I was kinda like "oh well.. ok" and like lay down from my sitting position so that when the bullet when through my head it was on the ground and I didn't do that little flail thing.

So err.. I'm being all dead-like and for some reason the first thought I had was my laptop. Forget IT techs who could hack it no prob, I was like I must give someone my password so that they can access my computer and no strangers steal/abuse it... (yeah shut up I am totally logical in my dream. I'm dead ffs!) Hence I kind of like.. whisper shouted my password at this random guy (so safe) until I felt like he heard me through the 'other side' loll..

Then I realised that when I touched people, they felt that weird cold/tingling sensation you know and they like shuddered or whatever so I had fun for a few minutes like touching you guys and poking your faces and grabbing your shoulders/arms and stuff. But then i was like grabbing someone's wrists and trying to make them dance with my feeble dead ghost whatever strength when either Steph or Kim (all asians look the same!) was like "Laina. I can see you" and started crying. And so for a couple minutes I was just like chilling with you guys cz you were planning on going to a party or something idk. But on the walk to the vehicle you guys couldn't see me again so I just creepily followed the group.

BUT THEN there were like these people with super powers or something (IDK broo......) and this bad person (lol wtf) who had power of like fire or whatever and he threw like this massive massive like 1-2 storeys high fireball at us kind of like those explosions you see on movies and stuff and cz I was properly dead again you guys couldn't hear me yelling at you to use your powers. So err... we just ran. And somehow we outran the fireballs. loll But then he's a douche and sent another massive one that we were anticipating and then you guys were all yelling at.. Ji I think to use her power of water and make it rain (on dem hoes!) or something but she was freaking out going "NO I CAN'T DO IT GUYS! OMG!" I forgot what exactly happened right after that I think Yj threw her up against the fence and threatened her. Either way we were fine.

But then someone else died. It was either Yj or Joy.. And so here we were going to the car (well it was some sort of shitty as van that Winnie was driving. jeez Winnie. invest much?) and I have another dead whatever friend =D yayy!! And we were piling into the van.. like no jk. piling into the van like there were 2 people in the passenger seat and at least 8 in the back loll

Oh crap. More exciting things happened after that but I've forgotten..... .... ... .. Yup. That's my dream. It was quite a tame dream.. I just thought it was interesting because of the whole... dead thing... hahaaaa

Also. Last night when I walked out of my room to get ready for bed I saw our neighbours' massive ugly cat creeping around our house like wtf. So I shooed it and it ran so I chased it (ofc) cz I was like dude... the doors have been closed for hours how did it get in? Well apparently the plumbers/electricians were doing work under the floorboards and there's like this large gaping hole where I imagine pipes and stuff are going to go later on. Now, it is a fun, temporary (I hope) entrance for random flea-ridden animals.

How exciting were the hours between 1 and 10am this morning? =D

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TBBT

Oh I forgot that my url was the gravity of despair... That was from Elizabeth Knox wasn't it? Ah Xas... He truly is glorious =D I like the word glorious. I use it often and unnecessarily but where is the glory in our world if we don't notice it? Lol That doesn't make sense.

Dammit I forgot what I was going to say....

OH RIGHT

The gravity of despair... the despair of gravity...

O, gravity, thou art a heartless bitch. =P

That is all.

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Long Time No See

So it's been a while since I've blogged and I can't even remember when/what my last post was... It occurs to me that I should check now. *10 second interlude* Ah... So err... that meme went well.. lol

I don't know why I suddenly thought to blog... I haven't actually opened blogger properly in months so I have many many posts to look through from my subscriptions. TBH I probably won't go through them because how horribly tedious is that?

I'm just rambling whatever comes to my head now because this post doesn't really have a purpose.. not like many of them do but whatever. I've come to realise that I am an unpleasant person. Tis perhaps a more recent development and I think I may have a psychological disease.. or the more likely scenario is that I'm PMS-ing =D

I was just saying today that I'm either sad or stupid and content. But it's not a particularly profound or warranted sort of sad.. more sadness out of boredom/apathy/frustration/anxiety. That probably doesn't make sense but fuck it. My mind is not a very sensible place.

So I guess I should be pretty chuffed about the whole marks thing but err.. not really, no. It kinda makes me even more depressed. Like if I was dumb I could be forgiven for not being more productive/successful/money-making but err.. yeah. I still believe that it was all luck because I did shit all and scraped by haha I suppose I just suit IB... Teachers helping us cheat the system also helped. =D I figure that this year I'll just see how I go and if it's no bueno then I can change back or whatever.. Bring on the student loan debt!!

I forget what I'm talking about... I'm very emotional these days. Or just stupid. I don't know. I'm normal when I first wake up but as the day goes on I get more and more spastic... I also eat more and more. I totally had 3 bowls of cereal yesterday.. Not even as meals =D Reading my old essays etc. makes me wonder where my intelligence went. Maybe because I've stopped reading or doing anything really other than eat, watch tv, trawl the internet, listen to music, spend too much money... All of my money's like gone so that's nice. God, this post is dull.. Wonder how fast the paint is drying? Is it as speedy as the growing grass?

Let's try lighten up. Not like BB cream, more like radiance powder... shiny shiny shinyyyyy =D

Let's share amusing thoughts:

I've been having strange dreams these days and I always want to tell people about them but I forget within the hour of waking up... Some of them are rather frightening o.o ... Wait this was supposed to be light. err.. I'm failing at this. Quick what's something funny about dreams?! Lol did you see that ridiculous internet thing? "Psychological fact: If you dream about a person, it means that they like you." Or something LUDICROUS like that.. Ludicrous is a fantastic word. Mr. O totally made that the word of the day/week/year in our class...

Speaking of BB cream (a while ago but whatever), I bought this apple face mask stuff in Taiwan and it's this korean brand... I was half ignoring the saleslady and also my mandarin isn't as fluent as it could/should be so I'm not sure if it's exfoliating or purifying or moisturising... It occurs to me to ask someone to take a look at the korean but I cbf.. I guess I'll find out when I try it? It smelt nice D=

Perhaps I have an amusing travel anecdote... I must do. Actually it was largely uneventful.. Just minor things that happen and are only really amusing because I was bored out of my mind. It was strange... we didn't eat the things that we wanted to because R is pussy and his stomach wasn't cooperating. OH! We went to Pizza Hut in Shanghai and they're like.. proper restaurant/diner type things. Like 2 floors with tables/booths and like the menu was much more extensive. There was milk/boba tea everywhere and of all the appetisers we could have chosen, we had escargots at the Nanjing Road Pizza Hut =D Cz we're classy like that.

I feel like pizza now... Pizza is good. What is this nonsense about pizza being made a vegetable in America? Sure perhaps it is 1/8 a serving of vegetable bc of the tomato paste but the oil and carbs and cheese and (probably) meats kind of negates whatever health benefits it has. I FEEL LIKE GARLIC BREAD. I love food. I haven't had garlic bread in soooo long. Maybe I can have pizza for dinner... I am literally thinking aloud/atyping... lol that doesn't make sense does it?

My thoughts are very jumpy. Jump backwards and forwards... It's a wonder I passed TOK at all lol Although it did take me ages to organise my thoughts because they were so messy in my first/second/third drafts hahaa

So we're ordering pizza but the site isn't letting me order it online... R is trying on his laptop now but otherwise I'll have to go down and get it... slack. I'm super hungry now so I'll just leave you here with the glorious grumbling of my stomach. Oh what he was able to order it fine... Whatta sexist! =P

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Day 01

Your favourite song:

This is hard I don't really have a favourite song. I guess if you go by which song gets stuck in my head the most these days is I Need a Doctor - Dr Dre ft. Eminem & Skylar Grey or Super Bass - Nicki Minaj

You can tell this has no purpose other than procrastination right? hahaa

Shall We Try This?

day 01 - your favorite song
day 02 - your least favorite song
day 03 - a song that makes you happy
day 04 - a song that makes you sad
day 05 - a song that reminds you of someone
day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere
day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event
day 08 - a song that you know all the words to
day 09 - a song that you can dance to
day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep
day 11 - a song from your favorite band
day 12 - a song from a band you hate
day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure
day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love
day 15 - a song that describes you
day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate
day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio
day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio
day 19 - a song from your favorite album
day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry
day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy
day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad
day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding
day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral
day 25 - a song that makes you laugh
day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument
day 27 - a song that you wish you could play
day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty
day 29 - a song from your childhood
day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

Life Lessons From A Wise And Articulate World Leader

You know, life, life not all guessing games, Frog. Sometimes, we have to care about friends, especially friends who love cookies. Friends who love cookies so much, they play silly guessing games, because maybe, just maybe a frog, a very handsome frog, who has cookie, will give best, best friend who no can live without cookies, give that best friend a cookie.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=shbgRyColvE&NR=1

Heheheheeee made my day.